Faith

Have you ever wondered about the meaning of this word that is the cornerstone of all religions?

Complete trust or confidence in someone or something.  Belief that is not based on proof.  For some reason I am starting to take a very good look at this word, and the meaning it has in my life. 

I am starting to wonder about the many things in my life I have faith in.  Not things I believe in, only the things I have faith in.  Things that I believe in without any proof.  Something that is more difficult than I imagined, because I have to look at the 'proof' I have with a discerning eye.  Is it proof I trust, or is it proof I use on faith from somebody else?  Thinking like this can force one to go catatonic or even worse, giving it up as impossible.  Unfortunately somebody has got to do it, and nobody else will do it for me.

Maybe I doubt my faith because I do not have complete trust.  Trust at specific times, in specific circumstances, yes, but complete trust is not something that I can claim for myself.  Not in anything.  Doubt is part of my daily life, part of my thoughts, and part of my every action.  Everything in my life is infused with doubt, and I am sick and tired of being ruled by doubt.  I need to get rid of most of it, because some doubt is always a good thing, but overriding doubt is just crippling me.

I don’t have much hope of achieving anything at all, but hope is like cockroaches; no matter how hard you try, as soon as you let go for a second one scuttles by as a reminder that you are not infallible.  Hope.  At least I still have hope.  Or do I just have faith in hope?

And now for something completely different.

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Not much, but at least it is different.